The Confused Chocolate Eater: Deedowhhh

Friday, October 20, 2006

Deedowhhh

I feel like a robot.

Day after day I feel like my life gets even more tiring.

My schedule is fixed every farking day. Class in the morning till late evening then off to rehearsals/shows at night.

Sucks I tell you.

Not that I hate doing it. I’m tired of it. Everyday I’ll be dancing from 9am to 12am. I’ve tons of assignments to actually worry about. My exams are very near and I’m so not prepared. With all that I still have to choreograph almost 20 songs for Astro’s Gegak Gemilang Tour. DINCH!

I’m so tired, I can sleep for weeks.

Everyday I ask myself, “where’s my priority?”. If I don’t do well in my studies I have no black and white for my future. If I don’t do freelance shows, how am I going to support myself? If I ignore Funky Socks Productions there won’t be any future for me.

The only thing I can do is balance it out. Right?

Its tiring but susah dulu senang kemudian. Right?

All the dinches in the world….

Sigh.. my life is fun in some ways and sucks in most ways.

I actually had to pamper myself by getting a new phone and a spanking brand new car! Yahoo! And their both orange. Hahah! Hidup TMNet! My orange phone is called Ashley Judd and my orange car is Elizabeth Hurley. My dad was the one who actually asked me to name them. What a weirdo.

I bought them both with my very own titik peluh man.. I feel so rock and roll now.

Now I know why my parents kept yelling “you think money grow on trees!!!” every time they caught me happily eating Magnum ice cream, skipping home from school in my baju kurung and my open toe school shoe, carrying my big ass black bag. I was 10 and Magnum costs RM3 then. I actually found my first love at that age. Magnum Almond…….. you still rock my world.

Dinch.. Ferdy, now I understand what you mean by “you ni, suka tiba-tiba tukar topic”

All the dinches in the world.